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Which usually I am not.

And usually I try not to bitch about personal problems on here.

But this

I dunno.

So I recorded a speech for my U.S. Government class and posted it on the class blogs, and suddenly everyone rushes it and says it's awesome and all that junk. So I'm feeling real praised, and then my teacher comes out with this crap about posting in on NPR and whatnot. So I briefly mention it to Dad, and he starts threatening to take away my computer time if I don't post the speech on NPR. Apparently, Julie also mentioned the NPR thing to my Mom, so when SHE gets home SHE'S going to give me shit about it and now I feel pressured from every side and it's making me uncomfortable and I just want to go curl up in a ball and hide in my closet.

I hate how nobody IRL seems to understand that I don't like sharing my political views, or any speeches/posts/opinions on real matters because it makes me uncomfortable, especially when I'm sharing them with people I don't know. It makes me very uncomfortable, I don't even post on forums on the internet because it makes me so nervous and gives me this nasty puking sensation in my stomach because I just KNOW someone is going to get mad at me.

I feel so pressured. I want to curl up and hide.



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